I//Wished//Your//Love//Away//.

everything is about to change. again. im feeling better. not all better. but i feel less broken than i did recently. there are some theories that have presented themselves to me as of late. things that ive never considered in my quest for self realization. life changing ideas. about who i am. my odd//awfull//scarred instincts. it gives me alot of hope. i tend to think i know everything. that ive considered every angle. but my tendency for the dramatic can red herring my logic. hope is something i needed. still need. im listening to music and just living this moment right now. i used to take the time to really feel the moment often. its all that got me by at one point. just having things be perfect for one small fraction of time. perfect because i decided they are. and nothing can get in. just me and the music. and the moment. and it isnt about anything. it just is.

Love,

L.