I had confusing motivations for returning to school. and. when everyone remarked "what a positive step!" "what a great decision" i was less than pleased. i am a narcissist. i think "nobody understands me and the constructs of my life//decisions//brain". but alas. it turns out. albeit for not one of the reasons others attributed to the situation that it has in fact been a positive decision//step. and not just for the mere fact that it makes me do something everyday. i have been feeling better {better than last year} for a while but for whatever catalyst school has imposed it seems to have tipped me into wellness {relative wellness} once more. so fully awakened i sit. i walk. i speak. i breathe. and i wonder. i wonder where i really go when i get so lost.
